Nothing

Today I have ate, slept and watched movies. Complete stress free day that I so needed for my heart and mind.

If you don't take care of yourself, you are no good for anyone.

I'm not going down on my knees,
Begging you to adore me
Can't you see it's misery
And torture for me
When I'm misunderstood
Try as hard as you can, I've tried as hard as I could
To make you see
How important it is for me

Here is a plea
From my heart to you
Nobody knows me
As well as you do
You know how hard it is for me
To shake the disease
That takes hold of my tongue
In situations like these

Understand me

Some people have to be
Permanently together
Lovers devoted to
Each other forever
Now I've got things to do
And I've said before that I know you have too
When I'm not there
In spirit I'll be there

Here is a plea
From my heart to you
Nobody knows me
As well as you do
You know how hard it is for me
To shake the disease
That takes hold of my tongue
In situations like these

Understand me

Grabbing hands grab all they can all for themselves after all...

Pussies...

Desperate living...

"Go home to your mother! Doesn't she ever watch you? Tell her this isn't some communist daycare center! Tell your mother I hate her! Tell your mother I hate you!"

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A bunch of unoriginal shit regurgitated by mindless numb assholes who think they are special and unique snowflakes!

Fuck You All!!

And nothing is written in the book, reality is made by you
And every lie that you pursue, eventually turns true
And I was told that your eyes would shine, a light up into space
And infinity would then consume this ordinary place

You know nothing, you know nothing at all
How could you know, you'll never know anything at all
You'll never know, you'll never know anything at all
You know nothing, you know nothing at all

I saw you standing in the fire, beneath a crimson moon
The ocean whispered on the sore, and echoed in the ruins
Inside your body is a clear blue light, and time was made from this
Your shadows swallow everything it feels. You punish us with bliss

You know nothing, you know nothing at all
How could you know, you'll never know anything at all
You'll never know, you'll never know anything at all
You know nothing, you know nothing at all

Staring onward,
As time stands still.
Devoid of tribulation,
While time stands still.
Starlight breaks this darkened haze,
Filter through decay.
Moonstruck children indisposed,
Malignant culture thriving on.
Defile the sanctum,
Of this place.

Winter now converges,
Drenched in all its blackness.
The last stalks of light are devoured,
Shadows wade through filth
With gestures far too wide
And so they march on hallowed ground.
History repeating,
Behavior that's been burned into the bone.

Staring onward
Will time stand still?
A thousand years of fruitless searching,
Object of desire beyond the reach,
Of old and brittle hands,
with bated breath, anticipate the end.
Voices of the vanquished echo in the dreams

Where is the fire
That dwells inside,
Darkness returns with cold embrace.
Staring onward,
When time stands still.
Devoid of tribulation,
Time stands still.
Staring onward,
Time stands still

staring in the face of condemnation
laughter fills the sky instead of rain

live my life alone in resignation
arms outstretched for those who cannot see

scarecrow

crucified and left in isolation
pictures of our lost morality

scarecrow

eyeless stares invite this whole damnation
rotting corpse of inhumanity

scarecrow

WISH...

this is the first day of my last days
built it up now take it apart
climbed up real high now fall down real far
no need for me to stay
the last thing left i just threw it away
i put my faith in god and my trust in you
now there's nothing more fucked up i could do

wish there was something real wish there was something true
wish there was something real in this world full of you

i'm the one without a soul
i'm the one with this big fucking hole
no new tale to tell
twenty-six years on my way to hell
gotta listen to your big time hard line bad luck fist fuck
don't think you're having all the fun
you know me i hate everyone

wish there was something real wish there was something true
wish there was something real in this world full of you

i want to but i can't turn back
but i want to but i can't turn back
but i want to but i can't turn back
but i want to but i can't turn back
but i want to but i can't turn back
but i want to but i can't turn back
but i want to but i can't turn back
but i want to but i can't turn back

wish there was something real wish there was something true
wish there was something real in this world full of you
wish there was something real wish there was something true
wish there was something real in this world full of you
this world full of you
this world full of you
this world full

We cannot destroy kindred: our chains stretch a little sometimes, but they never break.

Hikikomori...

Blisters on my hands
And I feel the go of the flow
I got system
In my Head

Telling to me to take a bow
Telling me to let it fail
Secret in the daytime
Secret on the inside

OH, I know, I'm home

Fingers in [my head?}
Grabbing so alone ???
Lingering by the stairs
Now I'm gonna go alone ???

OH, I know, I'm home

Secret in the daytime
Secret on the inside

OH, I know, I'm home

Keeps me awake now
Keeps me listening
*

Oh, I know, I'm home

I'm standing here on the ground
The sky above won't fall down
See no evil in all direction
Resolution of happiness
Things have been dark
For too long

Don't change for you
Don't change a thing for me

I found a love I had lost
It was gone for too long
Hear no evil in all directions
Execution of bitterness
Message received loud and clear

Don't change for you
Don't change a thing for me

I'm standing here on the ground
The sky above won't fall down
See no evil in all directions
Resolution of happiness
Things have been dark for too long

Don't change for you
Don't change a thing for me

Death.

Because I Could Not Stop for Death

Because I could not stop for Death,
He kindly stopped for me;
The carriage held but just ourselves
And Immortality.

We slowly drove, he knew no haste,
And I had put away
My labour, and my leisure too,
For his civility.

We passed the school where children played,
Their lessons scarcely done;
We passed the fields of gazing grain,
We passed the setting sun.

We paused before a house that seemed
A swelling of the ground;
The roof was scarcely visible,
The cornice but a mound.

Since then 'tis centuries; but each
Feels shorter than the day
I first surmised the horses' heads
Were toward eternity.

The illusion has been lifted

I can't be fooled
Manipulated into feeling less
It was all smoke and mirrors

At the end, you are still lying to yourself of what you can portray as beautiful.

You lose not me!