Happy Birthday Rig, you'd be 32 today... Love you forever

Unfortunately no matter how much I try to crawl into myself I won't completely disappear

She Wants Revenge - Love To Sleep

RUINER!

You had all of them on your side didn't you? 
You believe in all your lies didn't you? 
The ruiner's got a lot to prove he's got nothing to lose and now he 
Made you believe 
The ruiner's your only friend well he's the living end to the cattle 
He deceives 
The raping of the innocent you know the ruiner ruins everything he 
Sees 
Now the only pure thing left in my fucking world is wearing your disease 
How did you get so big? 
How did you get so strong? 
How did you get so hard? 
How did you get so long? 
You had to give them all a sign, didn't you? 
You had to covet what was mine, didn't you? 
The ruiner's a collector he's an infector serving his shit to his flies 
Maybe there will come a day when those that you keep blind will 
Suddenly realize 
Maybe it's a part of me you took to a place I hoped it would never go 
And maybe that fucked me up so much more than you'll ever know 
How did you get so big? 
How did you get so strong? 
How did you get so hard? 
How did you get so long? 
What you gave to me 
My perfect ring of scars 
You know I can see what you really are 
You didn't hurt me nothing can hurt me 
You didn't hurt me nothing can stop me now

that's what i get

Just when everything was making sense
You took away all my self-confidence
Now all that I've been hearing must be true
I guess I'm not the only boy for you

But that's what I get
That's what I get

How could me turn us into this?
After you just taught me how to kiss you
I told you I'd never say goodbye
Now I'm slipping on the tears you made me cry

But that's what I get
That's what I get


Why does it come as a surprise
To think that I was so naive
Maybe didn't mean so much
But it meant everything to me

But that's what I get
That's what I get

under the gun

You don't have to say you're sorry 
To look on further down the line 
Into the sun 
Too close at heaven 
Love is fine 
But you can't hold it like a ... 

Two worlds apart and two together 
Into that good night kiss away 
One takes the hard 
One the other 
Kiss a way 

Are you living for love? 
Are you living for love? 
When the road gets too tough 
Is your love strong enough? 

(are you living?) 
(are you living for love?) 

Do you feel your head is full of thunder? 
Questions never end? 
Empty nights alone? no wonder 
It all comes back again 

Are you living for love? 
Are you living for love? 
I've been under the gun 
I've lost and I've ... 
even 
It never happened and it ain't so hard 
Happiness is a loaded weapon and a 
Short cut is better by far 
Explosive bolts, ten thousand volts 
At a million miles an hour 
Abrasive wheels and molten metals 
It's a semi-automatic, get in the car 
Corrosive heart and frozen heat 
We're worlds apart where we could meet 
Where the street fold round and the motors start 
And the idiot wields the power 
Where the chosen hold the highest card 
On the field of honour where the ground is hard 
So the highest hand is joking wild 
And the house soon fold and no-one stand 
I put my finger on and dialled 
The tower, the moon, the gun, and 
Nine nine nine, singer down 
Cloudburst and all around 
The first are last, the blessed get wired 
The best is yet to come 
I put my finger on and fired 
Heat-seeking, out of the sun 
You can set the controls for the heart or the knees 
And the meek'll inherit what they damn well please 
Get ahead, go figure, go ahead and pull the trigger 
Everything under the gun

The Sisters of Mercy - Under the gun

MOIN - 'MURPHY' (Blackest Ever Black, 2013) - OFFICIAL

Nothing changes

NOTHING CHANGES Featured on :  - Oh how we laughed -guilty have no pride Nothing changes It only gets worse Nothing changes Waiting for a hearse There is no hope Escape is a hoax The pressure's building And I just can't cope Now and forever Nothing changes It only gets worse Nothing changes Waiting for a hearse There is no hope Escape is a hoax And we're the punchline To a Splengler's joke Now and forever Nothing changes... ---Back---

Worms

Everyday I reach down into the dirt

hoping to find me a little nugget of gold

but all I got is some worms

everyday I pull green slime down to my heart

grab it with both hands and hold until my lungs burn

I think tragedy sleeps at the foot of my bed

its incessant breathing keeps me awake

every time I wake up it takes me at least 10 minutes to remember my name

and sometimes I get it wrong

every time I reach out into the world hoping to find a kindred soul I get burned

burn it down

I've been searching for a reason I've been living for the season

give me something to believe in

burn it down

Jesu - Clear Stream

Jesu - Falling From Grace

Intinérant

Wandering home,
with all these fears,
resting with a point of space.

This is,
poised in the hands of man,
slip in - slip out,
no day or night.

No time - or place.

We put our trust in the faith of man,
we walk the trail,
crossing over a bridge,
when we saw the beauty that we could be.

Wishing out,
our hands, are in the soil now,
our time is up.

Europa,
set my sails,
on your oceans of ice tonight.

Set me on the trails of light,
the caverns in your iron core are home.

Europa rely,
the final resting place of my soul,
the monolith will come,
surrender reality up to cross over the night,
my boat is waiting on the shores of ice.

I may give up my only belief,
this borrowed time is over now,
pay the price,
forgotten years and pieces of Eden.

I’m wondering home,
with all these fears,
resting before me,
I put my faith in the hands of man and now I rest in soil.

I’m wondering,
my time is almost up,
this void is closing around,
my own universe is all in another time,
borrowed time,
pay it back,
I miss them all,
the halves of me.
I’m wondering.